I don’t do perfect

“You know, the whole thing about perfectionism. The perfectionism is very dangerous. Because of course if your fidelity to perfectionism is too high, you never do anything. Because doing anything results in…it’s actually kind of tragic because you sacrifice how gorgeous and perfect it is in your head for what it really is.” 
― David Foster Wallace

Something changes the moment you decide you’ve found a person you are ready to reveal parts of your soul to…

No matter what happens, or what the conclusion of that moment with that person is, we are all better off for having lived through these moments. I love this quote:

Something changes the moment you decide you’ve found a person you are ready to reveal parts of your soul to. Something stands out and makes the moment unique. A profound multidimensional clarity resembling a piece of carefully gathered stardust; As if you are whispering “finally” and your eyes fill with light and spontaneity. As if you do not care whether your heart will melt or crumble in the process because your brief courage undoes your tremendous fear of disbelief. You live for these moments; For you are, maybe for one second or more, sweetly forced to surrender yourself to unconditional intimacy. A moment of psychological reward smashing all self-imposed disciplines founded on terror. This is all you need.

~ Anais Nin 

A mover, a malcontent, and at times a stupid hell-raiser…

“Like most others, I was a seeker, a mover, a malcontent, and at times a stupid hell-raiser. I was never idle long enough to do much thinking, but I felt somehow that some of us were making real progress, that we had taken an honest road, and that the best of us would inevitably make it over the top. At the same time, I shared a dark suspicion that the life we were leading was a lost cause, that we were all actors, kidding ourselves along on a senseless odyssey. It was the tension between these two poles – a restless idealism on one hand and a sense of impending doom on the other – that kept me going.”

Hunter S. Thompson, The Rum Diary

The Paradox

“It was time to expect more of myself. Yet as I thought about happiness, I kept running up against paradoxes. I wanted to change myself but accept myself. I wanted to take myself less seriously — and also more seriously. I wanted to use my time well, but I also wanted to wander, to play, to read at whim. I wanted to think about myself so I could forget myself. I was always on the edge of agitation; I wanted to let go of envy and anxiety about the future, yet keep my energy and ambition.”

Gretchen Rubin, The Happiness Project

Master Alvaro Barreto Drops Big Knowledge

“You must understand that Jiu Jitsu is really four things. One: it is a philosophy that can be summed up by the statement ‘give to win.’ For example, if you make strength with your arms, then you give a point of leverage for your opponent to use against you. If you stay loose, then you deprive your opponent of that so by appearing to be weak, you gain strength. Secondly, it is a system of teaching. It gives access to proper rules of human behavior, self respect, honor, discipline, courage, and so on. Third, it is a therapy. If a man is too aggressive, it will calm him. If he is too weak or passive? It will make him stronger. And finally it is a fighting system. Today in MMA people only concentrate on the last and ignore the first three. Jiu Jitsu is not an end. It is a tool for creating a better life. It is like my north.”
– Alvaro Barreto

For The Moment My Desire To Be Loved Is Enough To Spur Me To Action

“For the moment my desire to be loved is enough to spur me to action. I want to be loved despite my faults. It isn’t exactly true that I’m a provocateur. A real provocateur is someone who says things he doesn’t think, just to shock. I try to say what I think. And when I sense that what I think is going to cause displeasure, I rush to say it with real enthusiasm. And deep down, I want to be loved despite that.

“Of course, there’s no guarantee this will last.”

Michel Houellebecq, The Art of Fiction No. 206

When I was 25 I was in my…

When I was 25, I was in my third job in as many years—all in the same area at a church, but the responsibilities were different each time. I was frustrated at the end of the third year because I didn’t know exactly what I wanted to do next. I didn’t feel like I’d found my place yet. I met with my boss, who was in his 50s. I told him how anxious I was about finding the one perfect job for me, and quick. He asked me how old I was, and when I told him I was 25, he told me I couldn’t complain to him about finding the right job until I was 32. In his opinion, it takes about 10 years after college to find the right fit, and anyone who finds it earlier than that is just plain lucky. So use every bit of your 10 years: try things, take classes, start over.